Sunday, November 20, 2011
I'm so proud to say that I'm at a point in my life where the things that people say that seem to cut through the soul don't mess up my entire day or my entire life! In saying that I am still human and always will be so some things do bother me but I don't let these things throw me off the course of my life's road that I so happily and contently travel currently! As I recall back to the time when I came back home with my son in my belly at the end of my first trimester and would hear from family and people who didn't know me say things that any woman with her unborn blessing in her womb shouldn't have to hear! We live in a world that strives to be something that it and the people in it will never obtain, perfection! I feel sorry for the souls that go around everyday thinking that they can or will one day be perfect! When my son was conceived it was through a tremendous amount of love that most babies don't even get the to chance to experience. I love that god considered me to be worthy enough to birth a child on my own without his father and not knowing at the time I would one day become strong enough to be the mother he needed me to be! What motherhood teaches me is absolutely jaw dropping and beautiful on so many levels! I never would've known before becoming a mother that this baby would be my teacher in life before he even began to speak words and how motherhood constantly gives me a test for my human strength and decision making. I can honestly say that every year my mindset and attitude improves in ways that back when I was 21 or even 26 when I gave birth to my son never thought it would be possible for me to change! As I gladly approach 30 and three years into motherhood I just wonder what else this little teacher is going to teach his mommy and how much like me he is but on a more advanced scale! In my opinion, no matter what people say about single motherhood, I do feel that it is challenging but it's also what you make it and if you choose to embrace all of the wonderful pleasures of being a mother it can be one of the best gifts god could ever give a woman! Most people say that it's tragic for a child to be brought up in a household with no father, but the true tragedy is when that child's father has some serious issues to where he tears that child down before he or she even has the chance to get a feel for the beautiful things that life has to offer! I'm am so happy to say that I was strong enough to not allow this to happen to my son and when dealing with people who are on the outside looking in have no idea how deep a situation like that can ruin the beauty and innocence that god instills in a child at conception can ruin that child forever!! So in that regard I feel that I have triumphed, because I didn't let my sons father tear him down! Now my son has every right to be the child and person he wants to be without someone tearing him down right at the time when he should have every full right to be who god intended for him to be!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
When I sit and think about all the people in my life at the current time it makes me smile! I have a three year old son who is absolutely beautiful and I feel blessed on such a great level to have him in my life! My son is a great baby and when he makes me upset he immediately does something to make me laugh and I don't even try to hold back, because I'm thinking "What's the point, laugh and let it out?" I could go on and on about him but I want to include others that have a profound affect on my life as well! My mother, Oh boy, she is loud, rambunctious, funny and has the biggest heart when it comes to her family! She will do anything for her family no matter what is said about her she is the type of person that will give you her last and not care as long as you're okay and have what you need! She loves to see others happy and has such a beautiful giving spirit that I have to say that she and I fortunately were blessed with! My grandmother, god rest her soul, had this same spirit and instilled it within my mother and I and she was our families rock! My grandmother was remarkable in so many ways that it would take weeks upon weeks to describe her or months and sundays as she would say! She sacrificed and gave so much that it would make you stop and wonder if she ever know how remarkable and beautiful she was! My brother, who is so distant, took it upon himself to become my guardian when I was seventeen years old, because he wanted me to have a chance at a better life! He didn't have to do that and he could've just went his on way to start his life not giving a care about all of us back home when he graduated from college back in 1997! I will always remember that and what a beautiful person he is and what a beautiful mind he has! I wish I had the focus and drive that my brother has, because it is down right awesome and keep up the excellent work! My grandfather is so intelligent and stubborn, which makes having a relationship with him difficult! No matter how stubborn my grandfather is he's still so awesome in so many ways! Not many people have the will and drive to self educate themselves on the level that he has! I love that fact that everyday he has to make it a priority to learn something that he didn't know the day before and what he knows will make anyone envious of the knowledge that he has obtained over the years! My cousin, who is currently going through a through a rough test right now, has truly taught me something! No matter what happens to you in life you are still here, which means that whatever your going through couldn't be that bad because your still here! My cousin has one the sweetest, toughest and coolest souls I know! Last but not least my best friends and they know who they are! They have the most beautiful qualities any friends could have! They are hilarious, strong, gifted and truly blessed with gods good hands! As a matter of fact I consider my best friends family, because I don't know too many friends who would do anything for you and not complain or act funny toward you no matter what they might be going through. I am so happy and pleased to have all of these great people in my life and I don't know what I would do without them! It's hard for me to see nothing but the things I don't agree with that they may do or say, because their beauty out shines all of that! I feel that if all a person can see in you is all negative then you don't need them in your life, especially if you are a beautiful person overall! No one person is all glorious and we all some things about ourselves that we need to work on just don't let what we need to work on be your focus! Take the time to see what makes those around you beautiful and let them know it!
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Tell me have you ever been blamed for someone else's mistake, because they chose not to be responsible? I feel that once you reach an age where you know right from wrong you have the option of choosing to do right or wrong. Now I'm not judgemental so those that choose right or wrong is that individuals human right and to be honest those of us that choose to do right still do some wrong even though we don't like to admit it! Whats dead wrong is when someone blames another for the mistakes they made! I think that is unfair and the individual that's placing blame should own up to their mistakes! It may seem like a small thing, but in all actually it's a tremendous deal! This problem can seriously ruin relationships or even keep relationships from ever blossoming! Placing blame like any other problem is not easy to stop especially if denial is present! You will definitely need the support of a higher power and your friends and family if possible. The change, of course, won't happen over night, but baby steps everyday will surely help you along the way to becoming a better you! Trust me I know, because I used to be that individual placing blame and I got sick of being that person! I knew that I could and needed to be more and recognizing that caused me to change! The woman that I envisioned myself being didn't place blame. She owned up to her responsibilities and womaned up to life! So if you desire to be a better person, whether you feel you can accomplish it or not, focus on your goal and let that be your drive to help you along the way! As always stay busy loving you and say hello to a better you!